Well at least you got some reply. Maybe it will make Mom think.
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So I sent this handmade CD to my family...
by mavie ini put together a cd of music a while back that explained some of my feelings and gave it to them.
my mom listened to it and asked me questions.
here is the tracklisting if you are interested:.
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Yeah, so I go to the meeting the other day
by JamieL inso i live in indiana, and we got a lot of snow the other day.
so i come home from work and it is really pretty bad out, but i've lived in indiana a long time and i've driven in snow and it's not hard you just need to be careful.
so i go to the meeting (yeah i'm dfd i told all you guys this).
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"I would drink, and party, and get with whoever I could, and probably not care that much about anyone except for myself, and I don't want to be that."
Jamie, I echo Uzzah's words here. You don't need the JWs. You need a therapist. Someone to help you sort out what you've been through and help you heal. Your comment I quoted sounds like you have a tendency towards self-destructive behavior (not that those behaviors are destructive in and of themselves, it's the underlying self-loathing you seem to exude), understandable considering what you've been through. I would strongly suggest that you find yourself a mental health professional to work with. It's hard work but so is torturing yourself trying to get reinstated into a cult that doesn't care for you. You deserve better.
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Starting my story...very long
by Synergy in[the watchtower, july 15, 1961 issue, page 420: .
[the watchtower, july 1, 1963 issue, page 413: .
[the watchtower, july 15, 1974 issue, page 442: .
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Okay, I went back and finished your post Renee. I look forward to the "happy ending" you've promised because you've had one hell of a life girlfriend! OMG! Hugs to you.
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So I sent this handmade CD to my family...
by mavie ini put together a cd of music a while back that explained some of my feelings and gave it to them.
my mom listened to it and asked me questions.
here is the tracklisting if you are interested:.
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Nice Mavie. What did your mom ask?
I gave my parents some CDs similar to yours, to share what I was going through. That was over a year ago. No comments made yet.
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Dreams??
by Outaservice indo you dream a lot?.
do you have pleasant dreams?.
do you have recurring dreams?.
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Hate to say it restrangled but I think it's our brain chemistry. For better or for worse.
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Dreams??
by Outaservice indo you dream a lot?.
do you have pleasant dreams?.
do you have recurring dreams?.
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Do you dream a lot?
Yes, I do. At least 3-5 different dreams a night.
Do you have pleasant dreams?
Not often. Lately a lot of flashback type dreams.
Do you have recurring dreams?
Yes, I've had a few recurring dreams since I was a kid. One is where I lose all of my teeth. Another is being chased by a large spider while I'm in a department store. But I'm naked and have to hide under the clothing racks while I'm trying to run away from the spider. Apparently I'm running for my life, but still modest. Weird.
The other one I have a lot is where I need to go pee so bad but can't find a washroom or the stall door only reaches my knees--something that keeps me from going.
Actually, most of my dreams involve some kind of unfulfilled urge and a kind of inhibiting modesty. Freud would have a field day with me!!!
Do you think God talks to you through dreams?
Don't believe in God, so no. I do believe that my subconscious works on stuff while I sleep. It's part of the function of memory.
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Starting my story...very long
by Synergy in[the watchtower, july 15, 1961 issue, page 420: .
[the watchtower, july 1, 1963 issue, page 413: .
[the watchtower, july 15, 1974 issue, page 442: .
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Hugs to you Synergy. I too couldn't finish reading your whole story. I had to stop just after your jc when you were 7. I skimmed through the rest but I am so consumed with anger and grief right now for what you've been through. It also triggers up stuff I've been through as well, stuff I was discussing with my therapist just yesterday. I'm so sorry you went through such traumatic experiences.
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This must be what it feels like to be disfellowshipped...
by Hecklerboy ini was listening to a sarah mclachlan cd the other day and this song reminded me so much of how it must feel to be disfellowshipped.. "fallen".
heaven bend to take my hand.
and lead me through the fire.
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This is my df'g song:
Condemnation--Depeche Mode
Condemnation
Tried
Here on the stand
With the book in my hand
And truth on my side
Accusations
Lies
Hand me my sentence
I'll show no repentance
I'll suffer with pride
If for honesty
You want apologies
I don't sympathize
If for kindness
You substitute blindness
Please open your eyes
Condemnation
Why
Because my duty
Was always to beauty
And that was my crime
Feel elation
High
To know I can trust this
Fix of injustice
Time after time
If you see purity
As immaturity
Well it's no surprise
If for kindness
You substitute blindness
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V for Vendetta
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Is Faith Dangerous? A Question for Believers...
by AllTimeJeff ini hope this will be as respectful a debate as possible.
here is the premise: many of us (most) seem to be ex jw's on this board.
that means, whatever your motivation, for a time you bought into the theology of jw to one degree or another.
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Well Perry, I'm not sure what to say to you. You've answered my questions about beliefs with beliefs of your own, based on your interpretation of God. I'm interested in less belief, not more.
My point, as I'm sure many can see happening on this thread, as that when we have a belief that we become attached to, there is a need to defend it as "the truth". Does truth need to be defended? Perhaps it just is?
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